cooling down the microwave

he's starting to let go. i can see it happening, slowly. but it's tough.
he's still obsessed with the fact that our friend likes me. and that's ALL he wants to talk about. i told him last night that i don't want to talk to him if that's what he wants to bring up again.
but then, all these signs he is seeing. signs from the universe. first, he was at a bar when i texted him, RIP Peter Steele, I'll Paint it Black. now i was talking about type o negative, but "paint it black" by the rolling stones was playing in the bar he was at at that moment. then, the other night we were at a hockey game...huge stadium...and he's in the section literally next to me. and he sees these signs and thinks...he shouldn't give up yet.
i asked him then, what could he bring to the table? i told him i felt i'd given our relationship everything i have, i'm done. but if you have something else to bring forward i'm listening. his response was "all i have is love." and i told him that LOVE IS NOT ENOUGH.
so he realized yesterday i'm moving on. he's suspected it, he's sensed it, he's seen it, and now i've confirmed it. "yes," i said. "i am."

it was my work that kept me upright
so you called it a crutch
while i drifted off into dreamland of such and such...
you can't will yourself happy
you can't will your cunt wet
you can't keep standing at the station, pretending you're being met
you can't wear a sign that says "yours" when that ain't what you get...