processing

so check this out.
i bought the monster a ticket to accompany me to my friend's wedding. he was super stoked...and the messages have not dropped off completely, but they've dropped. and no phone call since then.
granted, we don't usually (usually in the context of our 2-week relationship) talk on the weekends, i have a social life, he works constantly, and our diurnal rhythms are opposite. BUT, nevertheless, doesn't it seem right that he owes me a phone call to say thank you, and geek out a little bit?? usually he calls on monday or tuesday, he usually (my new favorite word, i'm adding a tag for that!) has a day off one of those days. which he spends thinking, texting, and jerking for me.
it's so funny, how i could not care about him pursuing others, and me doing the same, yet i would be like, "you haven't called in 4 days! maybe i shouldn't have bought that ticket??"
ah well well i DID. so suck it. we'll see how it pans out. i'm not gonna say anything, i'm just gonna be patient. in fact, i'm not even gonna text as i usually do. (and i haven't been.) ah, l'amour.
and then yesterday i stopped by the ex's and i guess i WAS wearing a see-through skirt. funny thing is, i wasn't wearing it for him, i was wearing it in case i went to PRIDE. pretty funny. anyway, he wanted to cuddle, and i let him, but then...usually i put a stop there. i didn't feel like it yesterday. maybe something about il bello..the way ex's cheek felt against mine, warm and scratchy and soft in between. plus, i was feeling bad about the drop-off in attention from my new toy...so i went for it. i didn't give him the pussy, i just blew him. i know it's his favorite, and i'm damn good at it...it's a super powerful position to be in plus i don't really feel like i have to be intimate with him. by not giving him that soft piece of my soul between my thighs. he was so happy. i'm pretty sure he's still glowing the morning after.
anyway, i'm doing my best to take things at face value. i only know what il bello has revealed to me, nothing more. process what's been handed to me. don't focus on or consider or ponder things that i can't see.
all i can see at this point is that il bello sends me wonderful messages, and had a busy weekend.
everything else is moot.
right???