validation

i just had an epiphany. i don't need to validate him.
i mean, every time i write him a one-liner...he one-lines me back. it's incredible. and i always am so excited and AMAZED than another human being GETS me on this plane, that i communicate that. but...why? my fear is that he'll lose interest, that our from-afar affair will not be worth the small effort it takes sustaining, when there are other folks in his city he can play with. but come on, what we have is different. not in the "it's special" way (not that it's not ; ) but in the way that there's no way for it to go immediately sour, and really, it does not take any effort. a couple of phone calls a week? that's nothing. i can put in that much.
anyway, TANGENT, i should not validate him every time. i should enjoy the fact he gets me, bask in that, bask in the fact that is mind is capable of such banter, and do not beat it into the ground. let it be beautiful, don't touch it up until it's smeared. it's more fun worth waiting for. let him wonder, what is she doing tonight?? or not. whatevs.
anyway, i AM a sucker for validation myself. i LOVE when people do that for me. and those close to me know to do that for me. but, this guy does it..differently. not because he wants to, because he just does. we totally vibe on the same plane, and it is so rare that when i do that with someone that i am actually attracted to them. and he wants to bareback...awwwww...you know i'm gonna say yes...