where is my heart?

i've recovered from the monster. it took me 2 days. 2 days with him= 2 days recovery. i can handle that.
i've done a really good job letting go, too. no messages from him a day, no messages from ME in a day, and most importantly, no tears.
he intellectually knows my value, but does not appreciate it. and really, i don't want to be in love with someone who isn't dazzled by me.
i miss my ex. all the sweetness. i wish he could inspire me, horizontally. it would be so worth working on in that case. but he just DOESN'T.
bello said he can only give me what he gave before. which is a lie, because since that weekend, he really hasn't given me SHIT. no phone call, only text when i'm desperate. and now that i'm not desperate anymore, i haven't heard a thing.
anyway, LET GO.
i did. goodbye, lovely monster.