lessons from the kabbalah

my love for you is based in my ego, a love of being loved, and a love of my reflection. and the ultimate betrayal is self-rejection.
that's the lesson: love myself.
i don't believe in me; you lose your spark for me.
if i were to love you sans ego, from the bottomless source of compassion within, i would not seek love returned; i am never depleted.
when i tip at a coffee shop, i am distinctly buddist. i don't care if the barista sees me slip my note in the cup. i give because it's the right thing to do, not because i seek recognition for my generosity.
i must love from this same spiritual standpoint: endless interconnection and infinite love.
(and then i will grow.)
you are a beautiful, blessed lesson.