things that make ya go hmmmm...

so the date last night- holy moly. my friend forgot to tell me that she's totally HOT. unbelieveable. totally hot. and hilarious, and smart. wow. it seems she wants to go out again... = D
and then, i talked to the movie guy again today. he's been sending me pictures of the movie stars he's been working with! not boring flashy ones. fucked up and prolific sexy older ones. dang!!
and both are turning me on. seriously. when i think about going to bed with the PA chicky...mmm it turns me on. it's been SO long since i've been with a woman.
and something about movie guy turns me on too. his voice is definitely sexy. i just want it so bad!!! it's been a long long time. since i've been properly laid.
not entirely true. in fact, since the ex and i broke up the sex has been really good! but, that's mostly cuz i miss him. and we haven't been getting any. and every time could be the last time. however, i know there will be a next time bc i invited him over tonight to stay... = P
through and through all of this...i'm dreaming about the crush that is almost a decade my junior. blows my f'in mind. there's these hot educated older people that i can actually feasibly have...and i dream about a boy. a young boy. a sexy, hot, intriguing young ... man. i mean, he's a few past 18. ; )
my 1 friend totally eggs me on. interesting bc he's friends with the ex. but no, he's like, go for it. it would be fun. a romp in the sack. he's like, trust me, he'll go for it. i would have definitely if i was his age. and i'm thinkin...yeah...probably. he might. BUT- it's my own fear of rejection holding me back. how mortified would i be if he said no???
i have a fantasy of luring him to my house, feeding him grass & champagne and seducing him. dude, i mean...i could definitely give the kid a blow job that he'd use as the basis of comparison for the rest of his life. that i know.
but anyway...that's that. we'll see what's up. out for now...xox.