i'm kinda busy

soooooo....

i went on a hike with the med student. it was....good.

he's perfect. no, literally. you should see him. it's absurd. he made me breakfast, he packed us a lunch. he's forgiving of my blunder. lets me lead as the rule. a perfect fucking gentleman. totally brilliant. allllll the right values.

anyway, we hiked 8 fucking miles. 8 miles!! and i was chipper the whole way. short of breath at the worst. and i'm not even sore the days after. must've had some MAJOR hormones propelling me.

life is unexpected. i'm really throwing this one to the wind. i totally went after him, got him to spend the day with me. i'll take that. he knows what's out there if that's the way he decides to go.

on another note, i have a date with a lady coming up here. wha hahahaha...

i'm doing pretty good. a bit exhilarated. missed my man somethin serious today. sometime last week, maybe thursday? i had a day like that too. funny. that's when my pms started, and today's when it ended cuz it came. fucking hormones.

i have so much love to give. like a river it flows and flows. who will take it? who can handle this current of emotion, this wave of dedication?? i know i'll blow someone's mind...in a way that makes them want to keep me. what i had with my last was a sweet, tender, and relatively healthy interaction. but it was not sustainable. i need super sustainable.

omg i just realized...going from the last paragraph from the one before could really stain the intent of the said paragraph...pun intended...

i mean, even the med student is a bit on the fringe for me, but that just may be what lies within...