my pledge

i promise to take you through this process with me, play by play.
i promise to be honest, even when i'm making the wrong choice.
i promise to share all of my feelings, no matter how twisted or difficult they may be.
i also promise to publish some of my older stuff (my history of romance, other poems, etc) when i have nothing fresh to share with you from my brain.

i also promise to update you on my crushes. see, i haven't menionted them yet because i'm in such darkness. but they exist. there's a professor, a comedian, a medical student, and more. this decision to break up with my boyfriend is a LONG time coming. i've given it over a year's thought- because i love him so much- but deep in my heart i know it's right. there are cute people out there i want to spend time with!!

i do plan on going to his house tonight. very late. and not even for a booty call. in fact, i'll probably give something up but not take it- i do it out of love. i don't even want it- it's not that good- i know there are men (and women) out there who will turn me on properly. but it's not him. but i do wish it was him!!!!! such a wonderful man...

and who knows. maybe one day it will be him. maybe i just need to set him free and let him sleep with a few more people. = P

probably not though. i hope we stay friends. our frienship is the strongest aspect of our relationship.