runaway train

here's the deal- you are just a little scary to me. that's why i call you monster!! but leave it to music, even old, played-out music, to help me put it all together.
this morning on my way to work i heard "runaway train," and i realized you are my runaway train.
so here you are...much like me. but from a different starting point. excuse me for saying it out loud, but it appears you had a very sexually repressive upbringing...and long term relationship. obviously, you are enjoying your freedom. you are a happy go lucky runaway train!! i, on the other hand, had a very sexually liberal upbringing- and they both have their faults. i've gotten much tamer in my late 20s since i started in my mid-teens!! anyway, i know what you're capable of, because we are so similar. ; )
you gotta do your thing. i gotta do mine. in the meantime we have this connection...
"bought a ticket for a runaway train, like a madman laughin at the rain. little out of touch, little insane; just easier than dealing with the pain..."
so i DID buy my runaway train a ticket...and i certainly feel like a madwoman lately. but it's my choice- to you love you, my runaway train- because that is easier than dealing with the reality of my loneliness and dysfunction. the song is all about how lost the dude is (me) and his one consolation.
anyway, blah blah blah. i'm fine with that. you are so fun. i adore you.
i answered an online personal ad from a couple!! = ^ ^ =