was thinking about blogging...

and i decided not to. nothing to blog about.

and then my phone blew up with the second ex in a row. constantly. exes exes exes. they never let me go. cept the recent ex. and what about the monster? he can just let me go?? meanwhile i've got men and women from the last 10 years wanting to love me, fuck me, be with me, affair with me...even the one who's getting married loves to friend with me!! he's not willing to let me go, even though it's platonic!?!

so, my ex will come back. the others...it wasn't like this right away. it's ridiculous for me to think we won't rekindle a relationship of friendship. we have connections in two different states.

i've got cramps. i think. i sure hope so. i've felt this now and then for the last random whatever span of time, but i swear today it's more than usual. maybe i'm finally getting my period???

i went to the doc yesterday and she took my blood. we'll see what that says. but YAY i swear i just felt a stronger cramp. here's to hopin it's not a kick, LOL!!! it's not. for reals.

i was on the monster's fb page today, i unhid him, lol. it said he was "in a relationship". really? mr. i don't want to commit to anyone i just want to have my fun?? i mean...there's a good chance that he IS in a relationship, but an open one...anyway. the funny part is, i don't really care. it doesn't really make me sad. only validated. AND, i would still be interested in him visiting me, tee hee. so i asked if his new found status precluded him from an autumn visit. we'll see what he says. either way...it'll all be ok.

i applied for two jobs. both that i don't want. but pay way more than i'm making. we'll see if i get interviewed!!!

guess i did have a thing or two to blog about. ; )