i'm so out of the thick that i forgot to mention...it's been a week now since carried the heaviness with me. no more sadness about a monster. i practically forced it outta him, but he fed me the line i expected. his heart hasn't changed. he still cares for me, i'm just so far away. he's focusing on what's in front of him. which, to me, is basically a bull shit line but it DIDN'T even make me feel bad! i wanted to hear it...the truth...even if the only truth he'll offer me is a line of bull shit!! i wanted either validation that he cares, validation that he's a cocky dick, but instead i got both. happiness.
and since then, my feelings towards him are a lot more positive, open, free of hurt.
i wonder, if he comes back, will i be the same? or will i maintain this bulletproof vest??
cheers to the new cute boys in my vicinity. and potentially some girls. <3
RSS TEST
3 years ago
No comments:
Post a Comment