update:
sorry i don't blog anymore. sooooo busy. he proposed last may, wedding is next june in hawaii. what more could i possibly say??
xoxox
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Tuesday, December 27, 2011
Monday, February 28, 2011
been soooooo longggggg
wow!!!!!
i just read my last post. in august. how funny. considering where i am now.
i started this blog because i needed a transition out of my last relationship. somewhere to put my thoughts, my energy, while i was getting back on the bus. i had SO MUCH FUN being single. mostly because i felt truly free. i got an opportunity to define who i wanted ME to be again. and who i was looking for.
and then i found him. yes, my friends, i hate to say it...ok i love to say it...but i am going to marry the honey boy. no, seriously!!! i am moving into his condo in less than two weeks, and we did some internet browsing last week for me to show him what kind of ring i'd like. this is IT folks. the eternal vixen found eternity in the arms of a man. i'm giving it all up. and i'm ready.
no more drugs, no more girls, no more cheating...ever. i couldn't even fathom doing that to him. he is EVERYTHING i've always been looking for. in the most cliche, yet sincere way possible. i am so blessed.
he is completely kind. spirituality is central to his approach to life, and love. he is absolutely gorgeous- when people meet him, they sometimes can't even handle his blue eyes. and his physique is perfect- a yoga boy- skinny but not frail and strong but not beefy. and he brings me so much joy every single day, i don't even know what to do with myself.
that being said, i am ready to throw in the towel. i'll be 30 this year, and it's as good a year as any to move forward with life.
i still, on occasion, think about my ex. not in a missing sort of way, but in a hopeful, somewhat melancholly way. i really want him to be happy. i saw his car here twice recently, visiting my bff. that means, he's not terrified of seeing me and my honey. which shows evolution. i also heard a rumor that he was dating someone, which is great. phaaaa. i do miss his friendship, but that's a sacrifice i made.
i also am feeling VERY confident about my honey and HIS ex. remember, she's the one who took her own life?? he's removed EVERY element of her from his condo to make room for me. i also found out recently he had changed his locks after they broke up- further demonstrating to my unconcerned mind that he moved on from her long before she did the deed. basically, by the time she hung herself (yes, i found out, that's how she did it) for him it was more like losing a family member than a lover.
anyway...i'm not sure if i'll actually keep blogging, or if this was more of a "wrap things up" posting. for now, i'll keep these ramblings on the blogosphere. i've thought about deleting it all; it served its purpose at the time that i needed it, and now it's over. i never really gained a following or even regular readers, but it was more about the "potential" for readers, while preserving my anonymity. things just wouldn't have been honest if there was someone i knew reading along.
point being, i don't know if i'll be back. perhaps this is a rediscovery. likely not. but i'm sending my love and light out to you all.
i just read my last post. in august. how funny. considering where i am now.
i started this blog because i needed a transition out of my last relationship. somewhere to put my thoughts, my energy, while i was getting back on the bus. i had SO MUCH FUN being single. mostly because i felt truly free. i got an opportunity to define who i wanted ME to be again. and who i was looking for.
and then i found him. yes, my friends, i hate to say it...ok i love to say it...but i am going to marry the honey boy. no, seriously!!! i am moving into his condo in less than two weeks, and we did some internet browsing last week for me to show him what kind of ring i'd like. this is IT folks. the eternal vixen found eternity in the arms of a man. i'm giving it all up. and i'm ready.
no more drugs, no more girls, no more cheating...ever. i couldn't even fathom doing that to him. he is EVERYTHING i've always been looking for. in the most cliche, yet sincere way possible. i am so blessed.
he is completely kind. spirituality is central to his approach to life, and love. he is absolutely gorgeous- when people meet him, they sometimes can't even handle his blue eyes. and his physique is perfect- a yoga boy- skinny but not frail and strong but not beefy. and he brings me so much joy every single day, i don't even know what to do with myself.
that being said, i am ready to throw in the towel. i'll be 30 this year, and it's as good a year as any to move forward with life.
i still, on occasion, think about my ex. not in a missing sort of way, but in a hopeful, somewhat melancholly way. i really want him to be happy. i saw his car here twice recently, visiting my bff. that means, he's not terrified of seeing me and my honey. which shows evolution. i also heard a rumor that he was dating someone, which is great. phaaaa. i do miss his friendship, but that's a sacrifice i made.
i also am feeling VERY confident about my honey and HIS ex. remember, she's the one who took her own life?? he's removed EVERY element of her from his condo to make room for me. i also found out recently he had changed his locks after they broke up- further demonstrating to my unconcerned mind that he moved on from her long before she did the deed. basically, by the time she hung herself (yes, i found out, that's how she did it) for him it was more like losing a family member than a lover.
anyway...i'm not sure if i'll actually keep blogging, or if this was more of a "wrap things up" posting. for now, i'll keep these ramblings on the blogosphere. i've thought about deleting it all; it served its purpose at the time that i needed it, and now it's over. i never really gained a following or even regular readers, but it was more about the "potential" for readers, while preserving my anonymity. things just wouldn't have been honest if there was someone i knew reading along.
point being, i don't know if i'll be back. perhaps this is a rediscovery. likely not. but i'm sending my love and light out to you all.
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